I remember asking myself wat would happen to me if we break up i think i know the answer- i become a different person. I become weak everytime i see him i feel pain. I thot i have run out of tears after crying for three days straight but no, thinking bout memories it just make me worse even dreaming bout those memories. Now to him, i am just someone who he doesnt care who is an idiot who believe dat forever do exist in relationship, who. lied to herself dat her boyfriend will love her forever and ever and also a guy who keep his promise but no. He doesnt give a damn bout me in fact he move on really fast i am nt saying dat he cant move on but it like those words he said to me... i still remember it veri clearly. Haiz he rrally move on veri fast.. idk wat i did wrong honestly i wonder if we during june hoildaysways g out rarely quarrel will we still break up? For me wat hurt me the most till nw is those memories and hw sweet and close we were. Haiz i think it will be hard for me to recover from this i remember once when it was after school, i was walking out from the side gate i saw him and his friend i even stood at the spot watching them i think i am really stupid for watching them. Why? Cos i saw him wif a lower sec girl erm like being really close and to be honest i really dk wat action are consider as flirting so i cant really say they r flirting but i know he was laughing and smiling thn knowing dat i will be in much pain if i watch them ya like veri dramatic so i turn away and walk i think dat was when they saw me they were behind me but i didnt know cos i was thinkin and comfortin myself dat we are nt together anymore dat i shouldnt feel so hurt. Looks like thr r goin to be a lot more obstacle for me to recover from the break up and it looks like my feelings for him still nt gone..... but i bet his feelings has alrdy fade and is on the road of moving on...