Hmm r we still distance? I have always been thinking bout this question. But I nv wanted to ask him- his reply will be Idw answer stupid/明自故问 the question. So no point asking. I noe hw ppl say that ppl won't change, but I swear he changed idk wat happen or who the fuck go change him but he is nt the person I knew during the early months of this year :/ he is nw colder and I am sick and tired of this attitude. I am exhausted to the Veri max. I am tired of being tired. I agree to a quote which mean that once we get wat we want, we get tired of them and if we lose it, regretting is just too late. That was wat he said to me before our mid year exams. I remembered that he was referring to me that I would get tired of him the moment I have it. I really wonder who is the person dat is tired nw. As much as I want this r/s to last for eternity :) I am bearing his attitude towards me. Trust me tomorrow his attitude will be the same. It will never be the same as the starting of the year. :( I kinda miss it and okay I noe we should love his or her flaws but sometimes it is also gd to change for the btr :> just like my mood swings no one can stand it that y I am trying Veri hard to nt have mood swings nowadays. I don't think dat my surrounding ppl or even those who r close to me know me Veri well, when I am angry I just want them to be by my side nt saying a thing and just follow me and listen to me talking bout y I am angry nt judging me that I am childish to be angry over such things. But those day have nv come and I don't think it will come... Uu may say uu understand me Veri well but if I am angry uu won't be scare of me instead just be my side . When my loved ones is nt by my side when I am angry, I get even more angry. Also I it cruel that the person uu r missing rite nw is nt missing uu my even thinking of uu I have a lot of things I want to say but I just can't say it ppl don't listen to me they nv have I sometimes feel like dying so that I can see who regretted nt treating me well and who really really care bout me. I hate this life I hate it a lot I sometimes walk down the memory lane, remembered the things we did it just make my life even sadder. It has nv ever ever repeat itself. No wonder ppl say that history nv repeats itself . In conclusion I love him a lot, want to be wif him a lot but he doesn't show it nowadays I don't mean that he has to always hug me or hold hands or anything but just don't be so cold