I always thot that my relationship wif dear will always be smooth and free from quarrels but dat was just a wishful thinking. I really really hate sunday cos some weeks make me depressed until i cant concentrate durin my violin lesson and tgus i cant play well which will thn add up to my depression level... honestly is preventing argument dat hard... hw cm other couples dont even quarrel. Sometimes i really really want to give up this 'frequently-at-war' relationship but once i think bout the ending bout hw i will be so regretful over my stupid decision, it appears to me dat i dont bear to leave him dat i really love him and idw him to leave. When we had problems, i will always reflect after our call. Most of the time it was me. The source of our problems nt dear but me. I was a problematic person i nv think before i speak or do. As much as i try to change, i will still be causing problems. I feel dat wat we are nw is cos of me. Thinking back, it was me who cause a big argument, which thn lead to nw. I dare to say we love each other very much but i will always be the once causing trouble. Tomorrow our anniversary i dw us to quarrel tonite. I love him <3 forever ( really <3 )