Friday, May 25, 2012 | 6:21 AM | 0 comments
So, having headache and nt really cheerpy :P so listening to music rite now the music well cheer me up for a while. But ltr leh lonely and sad again. Gillian Ng why uu so live ur life so stressful and painful. Cant i live my life like my parents. They are so happy together together. Haiz well, i have always believed dat every problems will have a solution. So i must be optimistic I cant give up. I must give my best dont give up i thot i am always the positive one. Well i btr live up to dat name. :> FORCE SMILE*
I love my dear but somehow he like cold towards me. Called me sensitive or wat, but dat wat i feel rite now. Hope this sense of mine wont nv ever cm true. Understanding is nt a diificult task. Y do i always have to make things so complicated. I swear i can be given the title of 'Queen of giving people pain'
I would definitely lived up to my name. WHAT THE FUCK AM I THINKING. if i have those mindset obviously. That title will never ever be mine. I swear. If that title was ever mine, i commit suicide. >.<
omg wat is wrong wif me -.- *put ur hearts up this song make me cheerful abit :D for now
this is lame but everytime i gt any problems dat i cant tell any human XD i talk to this bear hahahaha :D been doing this since i was in kindergarten bleh call me lame but this calm me down :D haha :D of cos the first person that can calm me down will be my dear haha :D dk y his face just calms me down without even talking power of love :D how strong can it get :D i think i am still a child sometimes. :P i miss dear haiz holiday if i cry cos i miss him nt surprising. of cos i will hold back those tears of mine. :P ltr reach 11 times ahhh dw risk it :P is always gd to be careful. Haiz wish dear will be by my side rite nw. Even if we nv talk, i could just stare at hime for hours and hours and my love for him will increase increase increase just by looking at him, i will feel so dreamy. It doesnt feel like reality when i am with him. I feel like i am in a dream dat i have never wake up from. I am a bit fail honestly but trust me within times, uu wont even dare to call me fail. i find myself nt trying sometimes dk y. Sometime i think too much but dat just human. I really want to see dear rite nw, i wan to hug him hold his hands, stare at him and give him a kiss( gosh i feel my face burning nw :P i am smiling just thinking bout it) ahhh i so gonna make this happen sooner or ltr since well i am so auto :D Love him, i love the way he can calm me down, i love the way he make me feel when i am with him--> happy, fortunate, lucky missing him every seconds >.< but still love him ttvm :D