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~Only the good die young~
This year is stressful to me now. I have to make sure that i dun get distracted during lesson. I always think bout irrelevant stuffs during lesson XD. Hmm, this year i am more cheerful thn last year. Maybe because last year was really dramatic and complicated. Which i really hate complicated stuffs. But it has also teach me what i really need in my life, secondary school life. I was really weak last year. Really. But now, :D i dun really care much about those past. This year i am going to put in 101% in whatever things i do. Maybe because now, i began to notice things that i have never notice before. :) I am really happy i made that decision ;) what decision i can't tell. :P hahaha i have always follow my heart :) it is ricky, but i dun think i have ever regret those decision before. Just bear for a few more months till i maybe could graduate from these school or another 1 more year. After dat, i have to make decision on my own and be independent and knows what i want. I always believe that once you graduate from secondary school, you have to be more responsible and mature. Abandon those sad past and move forward. I really like to noe what my future has in store for me. I just dun want complicated relations wif anyone anymore :D  My last post from this blog was like last year ago around September. Wow. It was so long ago >.< it was all cause of one thing. i can still remember clearly. I guess this blog has a lot of memories. not that i miss them but just a thought. I am sure that last time, i was really obsessed. But this year, i dont think i have any time for such nonsense. Every year, i think back about what i have done last year and i think that i am really stupid. I bet the same goes for everyone . HAHAHA. But still, i am quite happy for some of my friends hahaha. Anyway, I dun have time to be jealous. i just like the way how they are around each other. As times goes by, i am really confident that i do have weird taste. I am sure some people may know what i am referring XD. Even the slightest thought scares me XD. I definitely can't say it out. It is too sensitive XD its not anything wrong hahaha ^^ Ahh~ this book is like my favourite book. Although i havent read finish :P Love the feeling of reading a book that is about the past and listening to rock and roll music :D-Aerosmith-The Rolling Stones-Def LeppardSeriously, the song--> Only the good die young from Def Leppard is really nice. I sometimes swear to my mom bout why wasnt i born earlier and borin in America. So, i will be able to go to an Aerosmith concert, The Rolling Stones, Bon Jovi concert. Hahaha if i was born earlier, i would probably be a old woman now. XD i really wan to just travel to other countries like America, New York and Japan. I WANT TO BE FREE !! :D i feel happy just by thinking about it :) Since my motto is nth is impossible, i am sure i will one day go to these countries. I cant wait to grow up but yet i still dun really want to grow up so fast. hahaha i am really.. XD
I Hope This Year Will Be A Good Year ~
~Rock n Roll hahaha :D
Thursday, September 13, 2012 | 8:46 AM | 0 comments
Feeling worse than ever... ON THE VERGE OF BREAKING DOWN
I remember asking myself wat would happen to me if we break up i think i know the answer- i become a different person. I become weak everytime i see him i feel pain. I thot i have run out of tears after crying for three days straight but no, thinking bout memories it just make me worse even dreaming bout those memories. Now to him, i am just someone who he doesnt care who is an idiot who believe dat forever do exist in relationship, who. lied to herself dat her boyfriend will love her forever and ever and also a guy who keep his promise but no. He doesnt give a damn bout me in fact he move on really fast i am nt saying dat he cant move on but it like those words he said to me... i still remember it veri clearly. Haiz he rrally move on veri fast.. idk wat i did wrong honestly i wonder if we during june hoildaysways g out rarely quarrel will we still break up? For me wat hurt me the most till nw is those memories and hw sweet and close we were. Haiz i think it will be hard for me to recover from this i remember once when it was after school, i was walking out from the side gate i saw him and his friend i even stood at the spot watching them i think i am really stupid for watching them. Why? Cos i saw him wif a lower sec girl erm like being really close and to be honest i really dk wat action are consider as flirting so i cant really say they r flirting but i know he was laughing and smiling thn knowing dat i will be in much pain if i watch them ya like veri dramatic so i turn away and walk i think dat was when they saw me they were behind me but i didnt know cos i was thinkin and comfortin myself dat we are nt together anymore dat i shouldnt feel so hurt. Looks like thr r goin to be a lot more obstacle for me to recover from the break up and it looks like my feelings for him still nt gone..... but i bet his feelings has alrdy fade and is on the road of moving on...
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I think he changed. He was nt like this in the past. THe latest reply he would give will be like a few hours not after a few fucking hours... haiz i remember hw in the past on weekends he would msh me in the afternoon its ntlike we r on cold war. sometimes i feel like asking him question, but i can predict wat he will say--> he will say that i am sensitive or he dont want to answer. haiz he last time treat me soooooo gd, nw.... i rather him ugly but treat me veri gd, thn nw wat everybody would call him--> handsome. but wats the point of having a handsome bf while he doesnt treat uu the way uu should be treated. so, whenever ppl say he is handsome, i would always always think to myself that it no big fuck, cos when uu go out wif him, uu will see girls staring at him, and he will feel pleased like of cos i think every guy will feel that way.
But the point is i wan the old him back nt this guy nw... he like dont give a fuck bout me.. i really wonder whether he care bout me anot... i sometimes really think that even if i gt into a car accident, will he show care for me as well... i thought of a lot what if
- what if during the holidays, we always go out
- What if he nv meet cy
-What if his family wasnt so complicated
haiz i rather die nw thn facing this... i read ina newspaper once that in relationship, uu r really mature if uu can give up on a relationship, i think i am forever immature, i cant give up on this relationship i cant... i thot to myself before that what will happen to me if we r nt together anymore. i remember walking alone while thinking that it may sound dramatic but i could just feel a sharp pain in my heart while thinking of dat. I sometimes woke up during my sleep, veri suddenly and just feel depressed... cos i gt a nightmare of him and me... i love him so much so uu can imagine wat nightmare did i dreamt of... i remember telling myself that it was just a dream but it felt so real... i cant have a good nite sleep anymore... ever since we fucking distance... rite nw i am waiting for his text...its 10+ nw and the last time he was online in watsapp was 12+ am... wow... :'( i want the old him back so badly... i swear if he was nt back.... so, am nw remembering the things we did in the past... i really really dont want us to be sooooooo close and the next thing uu noe, we r strangers... this is nt the relationship i want... i really hate reading my diary, old post cos it just make me even sadder.... it just remind me of the old him... i really am nt sure if i did change anot, but if i did i dont even think he will realised... uu noe he doesnt care much about me anymore... this is sad isnt it... while i am still obessing wif me even more i swear rc noe hw much i am obessed wif him :> friends just help uu a lot in tough times. They noe whether anot r uu sad, angry and they will make uu happier i am glad i am friends wif them :) they help me in relationship problems and they always make me laugh even wif their lousy jokes :) were all bad in sports XD friends r really just as important as family and relationship as well. i think that relationship will affect ur studies unless uu dont have self discipline or uu r going thru tough time in the relationship. i kinda hate walking past couples rite nw, they make me jealous XD i will be thinking to myself bout dear and i thinking that hw i want to be wif him nw. which i dont think he will feel that ever since he changed. 11:11 pls change back dear to his old self and close this freaking gap between us <3 i must have been living in a simple world in my past life cos nw i am living in a complicated and torturing world which i just cant bear to leave... cos i am attached strongly to it...
rite nw, going out wif my family so frequently wont bored me. i mean like uu rarely want to go out wif me... do uu want me to rot to death at home... i spent a lot a lot of money at NEX on clothes all this but i doubt uu will be able to see cos we rarely go out :( one thing i want in ppl is to be honest wif me. Yes i will be quiet or my face will show like i am angry or something, i will cmf ask uu to repeat it again and i wan ppl to repeat it again. i think this is hw i listen to ppl honesty XD ya its weird but this is me. :D i really really hate it when ppl beat around the bush and dont dare to say the truth. >.< its really is irritating so obviously my mood will be bad after uu say the truth i meant like in the end uu dw to say the truth until i FORCE you... so who the hell wont be mad i noe i will... i also want ppl to tell me wat they been doin, i dw other ppl to tell i dw to be the one finding out i wan uu to say it i dont think its veri hard to say... i just dk y ppl dont wan to say it. haha i just remember hw shy i was in the first few months XD i couldnt even look at his photos in fb cos i dont dare to look XD i am weird >~< but nw i am looking at his photos every single min if possible :) haiz i nd to start everything again the way we behave rite nw is like we were behaving in our first 2 months which is unbearable >.< ahhh i remember dear saying to me that if one person work hard in the relationship it can be save XD dk whether he can remember saying that but nvm :)
Hmm r we still distance? I have always been thinking bout this question. But I nv wanted to ask him- his reply will be Idw answer stupid/明自故问 the question. So no point asking. I noe hw ppl say that ppl won't change, but I swear he changed idk wat happen or who the fuck go change him but he is nt the person I knew during the early months of this year :/ he is nw colder and I am sick and tired of this attitude. I am exhausted to the Veri max. I am tired of being tired. I agree to a quote which mean that once we get wat we want, we get tired of them and if we lose it, regretting is just too late. That was wat he said to me before our mid year exams. I remembered that he was referring to me that I would get tired of him the moment I have it. I really wonder who is the person dat is tired nw. As much as I want this r/s to last for eternity :) I am bearing his attitude towards me. Trust me tomorrow his attitude will be the same. It will never be the same as the starting of the year. :( I kinda miss it and okay I noe we should love his or her flaws but sometimes it is also gd to change for the btr :> just like my mood swings no one can stand it that y I am trying Veri hard to nt have mood swings nowadays. I don't think dat my surrounding ppl or even those who r close to me know me Veri well, when I am angry I just want them to be by my side nt saying a thing and just follow me and listen to me talking bout y I am angry nt judging me that I am childish to be angry over such things. But those day have nv come and I don't think it will come... Uu may say uu understand me Veri well but if I am angry uu won't be scare of me instead just be my side . When my loved ones is nt by my side when I am angry, I get even more angry. Also I it cruel that the person uu r missing rite nw is nt missing uu my even thinking of uu I have a lot of things I want to say but I just can't say it ppl don't listen to me they nv have I sometimes feel like dying so that I can see who regretted nt treating me well and who really really care bout me. I hate this life I hate it a lot I sometimes walk down the memory lane, remembered the things we did it just make my life even sadder. It has nv ever ever repeat itself. No wonder ppl say that history nv repeats itself . In conclusion I love him a lot, want to be wif him a lot but he doesn't show it nowadays I don't mean that he has to always hug me or hold hands or anything but just don't be so cold  
Being
straightforward just ease of my erm burden? Yet i still feel awful. I started
everything. It was my fault. I am starting to feel dat the ppl around me doesnt
really fking care bout my existence... maybe only dear care. But i always screw
things up. I may be sensitive sometimes but sometimes i am nt... girls flirt
back when uu flirt them... uu always walk like couple while i walk like a
single lonely person... dont say dat i get jealous over the slightest thing..
if i am nt jealous, it means i dont have feelings for uu. Haiz missing dear yet
no msg from him fking worse feeling ever. I feel dat he is fortunate if he
misses me he saw the text and thn he will msg me. And i am nt those ppl who
give late reply except when i am bz but my late reply is like only a few min
late while him erm a few hours. I can still remember the time when we nv ever
quarrel. Thn suddenly we quarrel a lot during the holidays thn school start,
and when school start we seldom quarrel as days goes by, but sometimes i am
sensitive and will anyhow think everytime it is me who started it all. Haiz
<3 him so much and this is hw i show it? :'/ <3 <3 <3 < 3 him
Haiz dont even noe whether he gt go to school anot :(
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Finally gt rid of dat annoying music :)I nw thn noe hw complicated relationship can be.... hmm and dat ppl arent wat they look like on the outside. the more i think bout it the more disgusted i get .... anyway, for relationship i think dat even if any of them distance, they can be close together again. :) close until no one and nth can separate them :) i hope and want this to happen to dear and me hehe :) is only a matter of time :) friendship can also be complicated everything in the world must be complicated till they r satisfied that wat it looks like. y cant it be simple like friends stick wif one another, always help each other and be the greatest friend they each ever had. i am nt saying i am a great friend to have sometimes i feel so fail as a friend and a girlfriend. sometimes its also nt my fault but yet ppl blame me for it. wat am i a person to blame when uu made mistakes? some ppl just dw to listen to the rite things they always stand by the saying" i am always rite, even when i am wrong, i am rite' i dont get it is it hard to listen to wat other ppl have in mind?
My life has officially gt from simple to complicated >.< for nw :) so on the bright side at least it is temporary :) as long as i set my mind to do it, i can find a solution :) haha :) nw waiting for call XD goin to fall asleep soon if he doesnt call in a few minutes time >.< my sorta short holiday hw bout to finish but my maths and chem hw havent do finish yet >.< maths hw veri hard idk hw to do but nvm :) i gt my sis to help me gd thing in gt an older sis who is well smart enough to give me correct answer for my maths hw :) haha :) i miss dear every single days :/ at least it goes to show hw much i <3 him <3 ^w^ to other ppl yea no matter hw i compliment dear, ppl will give me the face--> ._." they wont believe me XDbut nvm to me, dear is perfect haha :) i nowadays get jealous easily and i occasionally think of my past things dat we have done :) sad cos it was the past. happy cos i remember the feelings when we did those happy and fun things :) haiz miss those times :/ if only i can rewind time it will be so great :) kay someone has gt to invent such things or we should be born with a pause, replay and rewind button my life will be complete :) i sincerely hope dear will be my forever guy :) hehe :) pray hard :) and obviously my feelings definitely wont fade so is always him whether will his feelings fade i think the scariest thing in relationship is dat feelings will fade while uu love him or her so deeply or the other party thinks that being friends is better thn being a couple. fuck those ppl who thinks dat. if uu love somemore a lot a lot, uu will try any ways to find ur damn feelings back and do watever uu can to close dat gap and make ur relationship better and happier :) i really hope dat dear and i will be happy together forever :) I dont believe that forever dont exist it exist just dat ppl doesnt want it to exist >.< i hope dat i can always be close wif my friends nw and of cos be together wif dear forever :) <3
Friday, January 25, 2013 | 7:42 AM | 0comments
~Only the good die young~
This year is stressful to me now. I have to make sure that i dun get distracted during lesson. I always think bout irrelevant stuffs during lesson XD. Hmm, this year i am more cheerful thn last year. Maybe because last year was really dramatic and complicated. Which i really hate complicated stuffs. But it has also teach me what i really need in my life, secondary school life. I was really weak last year. Really. But now, :D i dun really care much about those past. This year i am going to put in 101% in whatever things i do. Maybe because now, i began to notice things that i have never notice before. :) I am really happy i made that decision ;) what decision i can't tell. :P hahaha i have always follow my heart :) it is ricky, but i dun think i have ever regret those decision before. Just bear for a few more months till i maybe could graduate from these school or another 1 more year. After dat, i have to make decision on my own and be independent and knows what i want. I always believe that once you graduate from secondary school, you have to be more responsible and mature. Abandon those sad past and move forward. I really like to noe what my future has in store for me. I just dun want complicated relations wif anyone anymore :D My last post from this blog was like last year ago around September. Wow. It was so long ago >.< it was all cause of one thing. i can still remember clearly. I guess this blog has a lot of memories. not that i miss them but just a thought. I am sure that last time, i was really obsessed. But this year, i dont think i have any time for such nonsense. Every year, i think back about what i have done last year and i think that i am really stupid. I bet the same goes for everyone . HAHAHA. But still, i am quite happy for some of my friends hahaha. Anyway, I dun have time to be jealous. i just like the way how they are around each other. As times goes by, i am really confident that i do have weird taste. I am sure some people may know what i am referring XD. Even the slightest thought scares me XD. I definitely can't say it out. It is too sensitive XD its not anything wrong hahaha ^^Ahh~ this book is like my favourite book. Although i havent read finish :P Love the feeling of reading a book that is about the past and listening to rock and roll music :D-Aerosmith-The Rolling Stones-Def LeppardSeriously, the song--> Only the good die young from Def Leppard is really nice. I sometimes swear to my mom bout why wasnt i born earlier and borin in America. So, i will be able to go to an Aerosmith concert, The Rolling Stones, Bon Jovi concert. Hahaha if i was born earlier, i would probably be a old woman now. XD i really wan to just travel to other countries like America, New York and Japan. I WANT TO BE FREE !! :D i feel happy just by thinking about it :) Since my motto is nth is impossible, i am sure i will one day go to these countries. I cant wait to grow up but yet i still dun really want to grow up so fast. hahaha i am really.. XD
I Hope This Year Will Be A Good Year ~
~Rock n Roll hahaha :D
Thursday, September 13, 2012 | 8:46 AM | 0comments
Feeling worse than ever... ON THE VERGE OF BREAKING DOWN
Sunday, August 19, 2012 | 5:33 AM | 0comments
I remember asking myself wat would happen to me if we break up i think i know the answer- i become a different person. I become weak everytime i see him i feel pain. I thot i have run out of tears after crying for three days straight but no, thinking bout memories it just make me worse even dreaming bout those memories. Now to him, i am just someone who he doesnt care who is an idiot who believe dat forever do exist in relationship, who. lied to herself dat her boyfriend will love her forever and ever and also a guy who keep his promise but no. He doesnt give a damn bout me in fact he move on really fast i am nt saying dat he cant move on but it like those words he said to me... i still remember it veri clearly. Haiz he rrally move on veri fast.. idk wat i did wrong honestly i wonder if we during june hoildaysways g out rarely quarrel will we still break up? For me wat hurt me the most till nw is those memories and hw sweet and close we were. Haiz i think it will be hard for me to recover from this i remember once when it was after school, i was walking out from the side gate i saw him and his friend i even stood at the spot watching them i think i am really stupid for watching them. Why? Cos i saw him wif a lower sec girl erm like being really close and to be honest i really dk wat action are consider as flirting so i cant really say they r flirting but i know he was laughing and smiling thn knowing dat i will be in much pain if i watch them ya like veri dramatic so i turn away and walk i think dat was when they saw me they were behind me but i didnt know cos i was thinkin and comfortin myself dat we are nt together anymore dat i shouldnt feel so hurt. Looks like thr r goin to be a lot more obstacle for me to recover from the break up and it looks like my feelings for him still nt gone..... but i bet his feelings has alrdy fade and is on the road of moving on...
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I think he changed. He was nt like this in the past. THe latest reply he would give will be like a few hours not after a few fucking hours... haiz i remember hw in the past on weekends he would msh me in the afternoon its ntlike we r on cold war. sometimes i feel like asking him question, but i can predict wat he will say--> he will say that i am sensitive or he dont want to answer. haiz he last time treat me soooooo gd, nw.... i rather him ugly but treat me veri gd, thn nw wat everybody would call him--> handsome. but wats the point of having a handsome bf while he doesnt treat uu the way uu should be treated. so, whenever ppl say he is handsome, i would always always think to myself that it no big fuck, cos when uu go out wif him, uu will see girls staring at him, and he will feel pleased like of cos i think every guy will feel that way.
But the point is i wan the old him back nt this guy nw... he like dont give a fuck bout me.. i really wonder whether he care bout me anot... i sometimes really think that even if i gt into a car accident, will he show care for me as well... i thought of a lot what if
- what if during the holidays, we always go out
- What if he nv meet cy
-What if his family wasnt so complicated
haiz i rather die nw thn facing this... i read ina newspaper once that in relationship, uu r really mature if uu can give up on a relationship, i think i am forever immature, i cant give up on this relationship i cant... i thot to myself before that what will happen to me if we r nt together anymore. i remember walking alone while thinking that it may sound dramatic but i could just feel a sharp pain in my heart while thinking of dat. I sometimes woke up during my sleep, veri suddenly and just feel depressed... cos i gt a nightmare of him and me... i love him so much so uu can imagine wat nightmare did i dreamt of... i remember telling myself that it was just a dream but it felt so real... i cant have a good nite sleep anymore... ever since we fucking distance... rite nw i am waiting for his text...its 10+ nw and the last time he was online in watsapp was 12+ am... wow... :'( i want the old him back so badly... i swear if he was nt back.... so, am nw remembering the things we did in the past... i really really dont want us to be sooooooo close and the next thing uu noe, we r strangers... this is nt the relationship i want... i really hate reading my diary, old post cos it just make me even sadder.... it just remind me of the old him... i really am nt sure if i did change anot, but if i did i dont even think he will realised... uu noe he doesnt care much about me anymore... this is sad isnt it... while i am still obessing wif me even more i swear rc noe hw much i am obessed wif him :> friends just help uu a lot in tough times. They noe whether anot r uu sad, angry and they will make uu happier i am glad i am friends wif them :) they help me in relationship problems and they always make me laugh even wif their lousy jokes :) were all bad in sports XD friends r really just as important as family and relationship as well. i think that relationship will affect ur studies unless uu dont have self discipline or uu r going thru tough time in the relationship. i kinda hate walking past couples rite nw, they make me jealous XD i will be thinking to myself bout dear and i thinking that hw i want to be wif him nw. which i dont think he will feel that ever since he changed. 11:11 pls change back dear to his old self and close this freaking gap between us <3 i must have been living in a simple world in my past life cos nw i am living in a complicated and torturing world which i just cant bear to leave... cos i am attached strongly to it...
rite nw, going out wif my family so frequently wont bored me. i mean like uu rarely want to go out wif me... do uu want me to rot to death at home... i spent a lot a lot of money at NEX on clothes all this but i doubt uu will be able to see cos we rarely go out :( one thing i want in ppl is to be honest wif me. Yes i will be quiet or my face will show like i am angry or something, i will cmf ask uu to repeat it again and i wan ppl to repeat it again. i think this is hw i listen to ppl honesty XD ya its weird but this is me. :D i really really hate it when ppl beat around the bush and dont dare to say the truth. >.< its really is irritating so obviously my mood will be bad after uu say the truth i meant like in the end uu dw to say the truth until i FORCE you... so who the hell wont be mad i noe i will... i also want ppl to tell me wat they been doin, i dw other ppl to tell i dw to be the one finding out i wan uu to say it i dont think its veri hard to say... i just dk y ppl dont wan to say it. haha i just remember hw shy i was in the first few months XD i couldnt even look at his photos in fb cos i dont dare to look XD i am weird >~< but nw i am looking at his photos every single min if possible :) haiz i nd to start everything again the way we behave rite nw is like we were behaving in our first 2 months which is unbearable >.< ahhh i remember dear saying to me that if one person work hard in the relationship it can be save XD dk whether he can remember saying that but nvm :)
Wednesday, July 18, 2012 | 8:22 AM | 0commentsHmm r we still distance? I have always been thinking bout this question. But I nv wanted to ask him- his reply will be Idw answer stupid/明自故问 the question. So no point asking. I noe hw ppl say that ppl won't change, but I swear he changed idk wat happen or who the fuck go change him but he is nt the person I knew during the early months of this year :/ he is nw colder and I am sick and tired of this attitude. I am exhausted to the Veri max. I am tired of being tired. I agree to a quote which mean that once we get wat we want, we get tired of them and if we lose it, regretting is just too late. That was wat he said to me before our mid year exams. I remembered that he was referring to me that I would get tired of him the moment I have it. I really wonder who is the person dat is tired nw. As much as I want this r/s to last for eternity :) I am bearing his attitude towards me. Trust me tomorrow his attitude will be the same. It will never be the same as the starting of the year. :( I kinda miss it and okay I noe we should love his or her flaws but sometimes it is also gd to change for the btr :> just like my mood swings no one can stand it that y I am trying Veri hard to nt have mood swings nowadays. I don't think dat my surrounding ppl or even those who r close to me know me Veri well, when I am angry I just want them to be by my side nt saying a thing and just follow me and listen to me talking bout y I am angry nt judging me that I am childish to be angry over such things. But those day have nv come and I don't think it will come... Uu may say uu understand me Veri well but if I am angry uu won't be scare of me instead just be my side . When my loved ones is nt by my side when I am angry, I get even more angry. Also I it cruel that the person uu r missing rite nw is nt missing uu my even thinking of uu I have a lot of things I want to say but I just can't say it ppl don't listen to me they nv have I sometimes feel like dying so that I can see who regretted nt treating me well and who really really care bout me. I hate this life I hate it a lot I sometimes walk down the memory lane, remembered the things we did it just make my life even sadder. It has nv ever ever repeat itself. No wonder ppl say that history nv repeats itself . In conclusion I love him a lot, want to be wif him a lot but he doesn't show it nowadays I don't mean that he has to always hug me or hold hands or anything but just don't be so cold Thursday, July 12, 2012 | 4:18 PM | 0comments
Being
straightforward just ease of my erm burden? Yet i still feel awful. I started
everything. It was my fault. I am starting to feel dat the ppl around me doesnt
really fking care bout my existence... maybe only dear care. But i always screw
things up. I may be sensitive sometimes but sometimes i am nt... girls flirt
back when uu flirt them... uu always walk like couple while i walk like a
single lonely person... dont say dat i get jealous over the slightest thing..
if i am nt jealous, it means i dont have feelings for uu. Haiz missing dear yet
no msg from him fking worse feeling ever. I feel dat he is fortunate if he
misses me he saw the text and thn he will msg me. And i am nt those ppl who
give late reply except when i am bz but my late reply is like only a few min
late while him erm a few hours. I can still remember the time when we nv ever
quarrel. Thn suddenly we quarrel a lot during the holidays thn school start,
and when school start we seldom quarrel as days goes by, but sometimes i am
sensitive and will anyhow think everytime it is me who started it all. Haiz
<3 him so much and this is hw i show it? :'/ <3 <3 <3 < 3 him
Haiz dont even noe whether he gt go to school anot :(
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Finally gt rid of dat annoying music :)I nw thn noe hw complicated relationship can be.... hmm and dat ppl arent wat they look like on the outside. the more i think bout it the more disgusted i get .... anyway, for relationship i think dat even if any of them distance, they can be close together again. :) close until no one and nth can separate them :) i hope and want this to happen to dear and me hehe :) is only a matter of time :) friendship can also be complicated everything in the world must be complicated till they r satisfied that wat it looks like. y cant it be simple like friends stick wif one another, always help each other and be the greatest friend they each ever had. i am nt saying i am a great friend to have sometimes i feel so fail as a friend and a girlfriend. sometimes its also nt my fault but yet ppl blame me for it. wat am i a person to blame when uu made mistakes? some ppl just dw to listen to the rite things they always stand by the saying" i am always rite, even when i am wrong, i am rite' i dont get it is it hard to listen to wat other ppl have in mind?
My life has officially gt from simple to complicated >.< for nw :) so on the bright side at least it is temporary :) as long as i set my mind to do it, i can find a solution :) haha :) nw waiting for call XD goin to fall asleep soon if he doesnt call in a few minutes time >.< my sorta short holiday hw bout to finish but my maths and chem hw havent do finish yet >.< maths hw veri hard idk hw to do but nvm :) i gt my sis to help me gd thing in gt an older sis who is well smart enough to give me correct answer for my maths hw :) haha :) i miss dear every single days :/ at least it goes to show hw much i <3 him <3 ^w^ to other ppl yea no matter hw i compliment dear, ppl will give me the face--> ._." they wont believe me XDbut nvm to me, dear is perfect haha :) i nowadays get jealous easily and i occasionally think of my past things dat we have done :) sad cos it was the past. happy cos i remember the feelings when we did those happy and fun things :) haiz miss those times :/ if only i can rewind time it will be so great :) kay someone has gt to invent such things or we should be born with a pause, replay and rewind button my life will be complete :) i sincerely hope dear will be my forever guy :) hehe :) pray hard :) and obviously my feelings definitely wont fade so is always him whether will his feelings fade i think the scariest thing in relationship is dat feelings will fade while uu love him or her so deeply or the other party thinks that being friends is better thn being a couple. fuck those ppl who thinks dat. if uu love somemore a lot a lot, uu will try any ways to find ur damn feelings back and do watever uu can to close dat gap and make ur relationship better and happier :) i really hope dat dear and i will be happy together forever :) I dont believe that forever dont exist it exist just dat ppl doesnt want it to exist >.< i hope dat i can always be close wif my friends nw and of cos be together wif dear forever :) <3
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Name: Gillian Ng. Singaporean. Am beginning to see the positive side in everyone. It takes a lot of effort so am currently trying very hard to reach this goal of mine :) I have just passed one major hurdler amongst the other many hurdlers in store for me ~~ Ageing is one of the things i feared the most. hence, my vanity ( sometimes XD) Blogilates is my inspirational. Embracing healthy living since last month :)
kpop and rocknroll fangirl
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Shinhwa Chanjo forever :) especially Shin Hyesung and Eric Mun. Of course it's not because they are the OTP of the group but their personality on cam and even off. Plus, their songs are purely awesome.
Rocknroll. Please do not think it is all about those deafening screams. Aerosmith ~~ I went to their concert and i was enchanted by their performance :) The Rolling Stones and Bon Jovi. In my opinion, they simply rule the RocknRoll World :)
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My last post from this blog was like last year ago around September. Wow. It was so long ago >.< it was all cause of one thing. i can still remember clearly. I guess this blog has a lot of memories. not that i miss them but just a thought. I am sure that last time, i was really obsessed. But this year, i dont think i have any time for such nonsense. Every year, i think back about what i have done last year and i think that i am really stupid. I bet the same goes for everyone . HAHAHA. But still, i am quite happy for some of my friends hahaha. Anyway, I dun have time to be jealous. i just like the way how they are around each other. As times goes by, i am really confident that i do have weird taste. I am sure some people may know what i am referring XD. Even the slightest thought scares me XD. I definitely can't say it out. It is too sensitive XD its not anything wrong hahaha ^^
Ahh~ this book is like my favourite book. Although i havent read finish :P Love the feeling of reading a book that is about the past and listening to rock and roll music :D-Aerosmith-The Rolling Stones-Def LeppardSeriously, the song--> Only the good die young from Def Leppard is really nice. I sometimes swear to my mom bout why wasnt i born earlier and borin in America. So, i will be able to go to an Aerosmith concert, The Rolling Stones, Bon Jovi concert. Hahaha if i was born earlier, i would probably be a old woman now. XD i really wan to just travel to other countries like America, New York and Japan. I WANT TO BE FREE !! :D i feel happy just by thinking about it :) Since my motto is nth is impossible, i am sure i will one day go to these countries. I cant wait to grow up but yet i still dun really want to grow up so fast. hahaha i am really.. XD
